Phew. Can I be excited about finishing another week? Because I am! I didn’t follow the program to a T (mainly just the order of workouts and the exact menu) but I worked out a lot and kept to my calorie limit (more or less). I’m feeling a lot…. cleaner. Does that make sense? It’s like my body is running better, it’s somewhat detoxed in a way.
I actually reached one of my first mini milestones yesterday – I ran for 10 minutes! And I achieved that 2 weeks early! It was inside on a treadmill, so I’ll change my mini milestone to be running 10min outside. But that’s great progress to see for me – it’s like I’m getting my old fitness back.
Mentally I’ve had another up and down week, but as the week progressed it’s been more up than down. Mid week I was still feeling uninspired, a bit lazy, a bit ‘over it’. But then I wrote on the 12WBT forums and was honest. I said I was feeling a bit crap. And all the responses I got were just so great – it wasn’t just ‘oh no, be fabulous, you can DO it’ cheerleader-style rant. It was real support. People saying ‘you’re allowed to be a bit crap’. They also said ‘I know what you’re going through’. Which to me means more than just trying to pep me up and get me over it. It’s the ‘real’ part of the program that I’ve never really tapped into before. And it’s great!
And all these good vibes have given me the confidence to do something really scary – I’ve taken a new job! It’s more of a contracting role, it’s outside of the square and it’s much less money than I usually make. In fact it just skims my expenses. But it’s also an amazing opportunity to start a new future with new skills and create a lifestyle that I want. So I’m scared and nervous and excited and hopeful all at the same time. And that’s a lot of emotion to squeeze in!
