How can I sum up the last four days… bullet points?
- Monday – started @12WBT. Ate right. Exercised right. Felt a little ‘empty’, but generally ok.
- Tuesday – ate right, but didn’t exercise because my head cold kept me in bed all day. But I was also too sick to have breakfast, so that’s something… right?
- Wednesday – Head cold gone. Weighed in and already lost 2kg since Monday. Elated. Exercised right, ate right. Then boyfriend said he needed ‘time to think’. And offered a job in Melbourne. On the same night. Slept for about two hours.
- Thursday – Started new admin job, and ended a relationship. Can’t stomach much food, and the constant watering from my eyes keeps me from going out to the gym.
I can’t begin to describe how strong the temptation is to just…. gorge. I know that the food is only a temporary fix for emotions that I need to feel and deal with like a grown up, but just for now… for the next 24 hours… can’t I just dull the pain? Make it go away, just for a little while?
This SUCKS.
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